I ask God to forgive my cynicism, I know it is a very adolescent attitude on my part. But I write from restlessness, with anger and ignorance.
God is in everything and everyone ...
I don't know, I don't know how to find that divine essence present in every being.
The karmic laws have put an individual by your side to make you shit, to bury you; but with great cunning and discernment one can, and should warn that that dear person loves and hates you, admires and envies you, praises and competes with you.
And because? Because it is really a beautiful obstacle; It really represents an excellent opportunity to evolve. And one has to feel grateful.
God's plan is perfect.
It is all set for one to grow, evolve, be enlightened: and this can only be achieved by ascending, step by step, obstacle after obstacle, leaving ignorance at every step, ascending up that tortuous staircase to have a broader view of this life at every moment, from this chaos ... that generates so many questions.
And there are crazy moments in which I have thanked him ... or, it has struck me how much misfortune the creator has put around me to overcome me, to see, to feel the true human essence ... I know that the essence is divine ... just let me go ... or else, it leaves my heart "that in men there is only greed, competition, envy, possession." Possession ... "my family", "my husband", "my friend", "my son", "my country", "my church" and all those things that make this world an infinite chain of chains that bind you to something so that you are not free.
The wild mystical path makes me vomit; I have naturally forgotten about my previous lives, but I wonder ... and it is obvious that yes: that I have been as ... as lining I have a son of a bitch as they have been with me. It happens that apparently one is erased the disk and comes with a lot of perfect obstacles to develop timely, in one more step of the spiritual life.
And the question would be whether one should see these people ... as things, as perfect walls that impede our development ... a kind of ingenuity game ... very good, and that one has to solve, unmask ... and maybe later love; But love from what place?
Is one doing a favor to the son of a bitch who buries you when he sends him to hell? Does one make it grow? I say ... because the plan is perfect. Well, sometimes I have analyzed it and I think so, but I usually send them to hell without noticing the favors that I could have done, basically I wanted to get rid of them. And I am far from loving them. I need a lot of light to love people like that. And I don't have it yet.
Wild mystical path ... is the birth of addressing God, on the fucking route that one must travel to free oneself from that life that is torn between some pleasure from time to time; and many more misfortunes, or passages, without sorrows or glories; distress when looking at the infinite misfortunes that happen around one, or beyond.
Peace, peace, I only want peace a long time ago, and that is something unattainable in this world. It lasts what a fart in the hand lasts. That's why I'm looking for God.
And the wise, the prophets, have said little about how "they came to gather to enlighten themselves." Is that the guys talk to you once they reached enlightenment, or a certain state of consciousness in which, the rest of mortals are already seen with much more sympathy, consideration, compassion and love.
But what love?
The love of a father to the son only closes me ... that is, they are beyond. I think ... that's the only way to love a tremendous son of a bitch.
And I am far from that, I want to warn you that I am not enlightened yet; and at this moment I am not getting close to the cannot be possible be possible be can be can be, be sent to the shell.
There are very few books and gurus that emphasize human misery; In fact I have contacted some men with some knowledge and the types are in theirs. The guys tell you do what I tell you and don't break my balls They don’t curl up with personal problems they put your vision on something much higher, and that something must a solve the quilombos; Don't fuck me kid.
And I've tried to screw them up: I've tried them, and only from one did I get a reaction that could be a certain pride, or an unresolved issue.
I wanted to interest another guru in a matter, and no ball; they are with their message, with their truth, with a portion of the truth to which they cling, like the only one.
And what is that truth?
A portion, an accurate portion, an undeniable truth. But it is a portion, a fragment, an orange observed from a single point of view. And I say this with a certain resentment for those musicians, who are so self-centered; I complain, they should not be so one-sided, life is not, and the people they want to lead are not, they cannot aspire to a dialogue uniformity based on their dialect and experience.
What is the truth?
It depends on the path in the wild mystical path, it is a mix of reality and that which some call illusion, spirit, God, beliefs A chaos in which one can and he wants to believe certain things, until a new concern arises and Ohh ! as if by magic, new answers, other truths, other questions arise.
Material solutions are only solutions for someone materialistic, spiritual ones for those who are on a spiritual path, everything in its place and for its purpose. To each question your answer, not an answer to each question.
Do all roads lead to Rome?
Yes, but the means are not the same, in the last journey traveling by boat on the cement would be stupid.
To a more serious doctor, talking about elves, elementals and other things that one could marvel at, he cares about two eggs, they don't accommodate those things. Not because they do not believe or have not seen, but because they know that the transformation of the human being does not depend on that.
And one entertains with that world, is interested and marvels at that reality; but the truth capable of transforming human idiocy is not hidden in the elemental kingdom. Human stupidity is human and you don't have to ask the elves for a solution.
Do elves smoke boil to see us?
I don't know ... but let's continue with the book.
The detachment of the wise towards the rest of humanity is evident, the types help us; but friends ... few ...
I make a parenthesis, I have read these days, something from the Urantia book and there it is said that God's plan or that thing and those beings from beyond are not perfect ... as elsewhere it is said, it seems that the enlightened ones, or spiritually superior beings ... far superior to us, they also step on the stick. And it makes sense, evolutionary dynamics that line of thinking, since otherwise the evolution in those higher planes would not be possible if there were no obstacles, new steps.
I make another parenthesis, I have been thinking about not talking about these matters until I have a little more light ... but here I am, relieving penalties of a dizzy pilgrim, overwhelmed by the road ... to THE HEAD.
For this reason the judgment is necessary, the discernment of those who read this since I am still one more gil.
Clarified that, perhaps the most important thing I can say today, I continue.
Leave everything and follow me ... a Christian phrase, but that surely has its parallels in many religious lines or spiritual paths.
So then, I was still clinging to my last earthly attachment, love, the couple; deceived with the illusion of a spiritual path in conjunction with the above, but deceived me. My ego was defending that couple with cape and sword ... I didn't want to lose it, I didn't want to be separated, and I fought like a son of a bitch in front of all the social shit I didn't want to see a mystic flown with a beautiful and titled young lady.
Truly, on the one hand, I believed in that love spiritually with horizons, and earthly chaotic. I thought that spirituality could above all things ... every day was ... sickly, we only had that spirituality, that aspiration.
And perhaps if he didn't have so much ego, he could have noticed that the spiritual path was not felt or lived with the same intensity for both of them; My mistake was that, not differentiating their aspiration, romanticism, from reality ... that demanded "leave everything and follow me"
I didn't leave it, and she didn't leave it. For my part I wanted to silence all the voices against us, I wanted to show them, send them in the ass to all those who wanted to see us separated, we joined something superior and I always thought we would win ... today I believe that all the battles on earth are lost; One only earns treasures in the hereafter. The changes, the glories here on earth, are tiny, everything is very slow in human evolution. At least in my evolutionary condition, in my way, and with this vision of time.
As for the lady in question ... I still don't want to "leave everything", her illusion for our love, her romanticism did not allow her to see that our personal, earthly relationship was a disaster ... we cling to "love is stronger ", And spirituality.
Fito Paez, the shit was sent to say that, people cling to crappy ties, and how Paez did not clarify what exactly love was, I have been one of the giles who continue to believe in a neurotic relationship, protected by an ideal … undefined. A word that created a lot of confusion in man, love. The love of the mother ... the love of the father ... of your wife, of your sister ... of your man ... with which, together, they will be able to overcome the 4 consecutive and premeditated deceptions that you lived. The manipulations in the name of love are endless.
Nice book that of the manipulator ... there you see your loved ones, you see yourself manipulating and it is clear that this is not love, and that society, family, are quite far from healthy relationships that can be classified as loving. And even without needing to define what love is, that becomes evident.
As for that tremendous question ... I could solve the world's problems
But who wants to see the answer, who wants to part with a possessive love, who wants to give freedom to the loved one with the possibility of not returning, or not responding to our expectations and demands for affection and presence? Who is willing to give the necessary freedom to enable greater judgment and discernment in the other, with which they could then turn against our value structure ... who wants to take the risk? Parents…? They are the last to love him. The model of authority, of teachers, of gurus, will never accept that evolution happens to be recognized in a possible ignorance in front of a son, a student or someone who can demonstrate to his ego that he is being overcome by evolution, that the Evolution is happening in front of their noses and they are there ... rigid, clinging to their dogmas and the past.
What is the love of God about? Now ... in 2012, what are the prophecies that warn of a terrible destiny for thousands of human beings ... are it with love that God will erase them from the planet? Is it important for him a little suffering in the flesh, a little psychological suffering? It would seem that the spirit, the soul, the essence, continues; and the pain we feel or see is only an instant for God, an instant that is justified in the growth of our spirit, soul, cuteness, or whatever.
Then the love of God, from our conception ... from my conception ... is capable of giving a tremendous slap to the personality of man, to the body of man. And now I remember a passage in Parravicini's books, in which an angel, a superior being, I don't remember well ... grabs him by the neck and puts him face down ... apparently Benjamin had momentarily deviated from the path and they came to him. to attract attention… in that way… Something very distant from what one idealizes, sometimes, in that concept of Love.
To God we are a speck of dust ... I know, our personality is a grain of sand in the universe. If we aspire to it, we are beach, if the wind does not take us. No more than a beach, a beach in a town more than its universe, one day we will aspire to be world, unity. But if not ... nothing. We are nothing.
And I say this one day after I asked the HEAD to give me peace, yesterday, and he gave it to me instantly ... it was something incredible, the moment was total chaos. I was holding on to the last wish ... love ... earthly, a person ... "leave everything and follow me" ... anyway. Family, friends, pleasures, vocation… I am practically dead to the world, but she is, our relationship is there, and my desires are not destroyed… but… “leave everything and follow me”
Fight against everyone and with her ... yes, she does not shed some passions, which would become her family, her social role, our social mask, which she still cannot proclaim "we leave everything and follow him".
Then the energies of the environment, which at this point I feel them a lot, were burying me in depression, drowning, helplessness, loneliness ... shit ... the wild road to God in short.
And I was away from home and I asked God to intercede ... to "intervene" I think it was the word, and I asked for peace ... in two seconds I obtained peace ... I thought it was incredible because it was one of those moments in which the mind It is totally runaway; Out of nowhere the feeling was in me.
A while ago I read one of those messages that come from beyond, De Micael, said that in 2010 the orders would be granted instantly with a lot of speed ... and I said look you ... that happened to me.
Days ago the illusion of a couple was even worse and the madness in my mind proportional; and I also asked God to do something ... I never address the CHIEF directly, I think it's disrespectful ... I say ... having so many saints and beings that can take care of us ... why bother him? But the situation overwhelmed me greatly and I did it. Instantly I saw a light much faster than an airplane, it was dim, and suddenly it made a big flash and left at a very striking speed; I see many planes and that was not one of those planes that I see every night.
Now I remember something that happened in a field ... and I tell it how I tell all these things, from my perfect imperfection and mortality, which to them, I am sure ... should make them laugh.
I was very angry in those days, I don't know why, and it was an open field, with the low horizon, like the fields of La Pampa; there were no trees, so I was so angry with the gods, with God, beings and the whole plan, that I told them motherfuckers! Or something like that…
And a light appeared, I do not remember how it was, what I do remember is that they appeared ... as if saying ... "we listen to you" And at that moment I was laughed to see them, to see that light that reacted to my earthly fucking ... it was very funny; I instantly imagined that they were smiling at my attitude, and I felt ... on the one hand accompanied, and on the other, with the problem still present, but with more humor ... beings had winked at me ... and on top of that I had puted them . They are thick. They are absolutely understanding, and tolerant of our miseries, vices, and stupidities. I know from my experience, I have a lot of misery but they don't abandon me; I think it's because I always aspire and try to change ... almost obsessively.
Marital chaos continues today. This is a nightmare. I already tried to separate but the book of changes did not recommend it to me ... in fact he said: “He has no right to enter into bliss, leaving the world at the mercy of need. Rather, his duty demands it and will make him return once more to the whirlwind of the world. ”He says a few more words, but basically I understood that I should help her.
He has told me the same thing several times since our relationship has been flying very low for a long time, and I always wonder, and I ask God if I should continue with it. Apparently, the only possible conclusion I can make at this moment is that she moves along a very thin line and her personality fails to obfuscate some virtues that she possesses and make her deserving of a better evolutionary horizon.
When putting this, I am a little friend with his spirit, I calm down, it is for a while, until I return and the madness begins. We have never exceeded the three or four days of home harmony.
In the eyes of others everything seems to work great, but some time ago I woke up and I realized that in our partner there were good values, absolute sincerity, no secret, no deception and much spiritual path of both ... however, when I set aside Pride for all these achievements and I lived every day we were just two egos killing each other ... for different reasons.
It was around those days, perhaps 4 years ago, that the truths of the Kibalion began to become evident. "Everything is mind" ... energy in the mind, thoughts that translate into energy, positive and negative. That energy travels from one mind to the other; and suddenly I noticed that not all my thoughts were mine. That the depression I sometimes felt didn't always have real causes ... my reality was different ... there was no reason to feel that way. Nor were there many reasons in each fight and discussion that occurred in my partner. There were no reasons and complications such that they could cause me stress or similar muscular contractures. Where did the sadness he had at times come from? Where did the fatigue, without had not had a laborious day?
The Chinese who practice acupuncture think that the origin of muscle contractures is due to “perverse energies”
But with a little analysis and questions to the book of mutations, those perverse energies began to have a first and last name.
With that knowledge and some defense tricks, my life began to move, and I achieved great things that until now had been only dreams. I achieved, and achieved the impossible, things that seemed to be far from our reach. With minimal resources we reach several personal and material goals.
I realized that the negative thoughts that people directed us, in addition to affecting our mind and body, also acted on matter.
One day the car breaks down not because a piece has been worn out, but because you came across someone who bothers your car, and so it is with everything, with any object and thing, with your bathroom, with your refrigerator, your phone etc. Everything is susceptible to energy.
At first my wife called me a paranoid, she told me she was an exaggeration. Obviously ... it was too strong to believe. It was like an awakening ... but it was nothing wonderful ... it was unpleasant, and also annoying to deal with the energies of a lot of people who want shit for one reason or another; some in one aspect, others in another ... and life becomes much more complicated than it really should be.
My wife always ended up healing from fear in the face of evidence; and basically I say this for a lot of overwhelming evidence that leads me to affirm these things.
She out there relaxes and does not resort to the necessary tricks, until there she drops the tab ... over and over again on the origin of some mishaps.
The last one was a couple of weeks ago, the car's donkey failed and we were about to take it to the mechanic, it had been failing for some time and there seemed to be no one to do with that fault. Maybe this was a worn piece ... Until one day life put a person forward, he saw it in a strange attitude and we applied the trick to the fucking envy ... By magic the donkey never failed again.
Situations like that we saw thousands. And today I think that in life things have to work relatively well, and if they don't do it, someone is remembering you ...
This is as long as one walks on the right path, and misfortunes do not respond to our inner justification, to something that we have generated and that only hit the turn "in life everything has a turn"
I will change the subject so as not to bore you
The desire, went a little with vegetarianism. The Sungazing contributes a little, I think. From the Sungazing, I tell my experience, another day but I think the desires have been lost. The desire for sex noticed that it diminished greatly when I started practicing sungazing. Sex has been my refuge throughout my short life; that space where I found peace and love that in the mundane whirlwind ... (as I Ching says) was complicated to experience. I have always taken sex basically like that, a place of love, giving and receiving affection ... pleasure in this case ... or, the translation I have made of love in that area, beyond the certainty of appreciation.
In short, as peace and love were difficult for me to find in another context, I looked for it in sex.
You could also say that I liked sex like any person, in its most carnal sense. And the truth is that I don't know how sexy I have been, the truth is that with sungazing my libido under a lot.
It has also reduced the desire for food in its pleasant sense ... I mean have a delicious meal; It's like everything has become more practical and I want food just to have energy, so like what I have on hand, something fast and that doesn't require me more work to do it, I try to eat something nutritious, and that's it.
Returning to the vegetarian question, it is a whole issue ... but I close that aspect of desire and say that vegetarianism, according to my partner, reduces the issue of pleasure for the rich ... that is, one does not die of desire to eat something in particular; at one time it was the flesh and its smell ... that generated the desire, but when we left it there were no more unbridled desires for nothing; and with sungazing, in particular, that issue was accentuated. Let's keep in mind that one of the things that HRM promises is the possibility to stop eating, to eat solid and liquid foods, only water, and sun.
It is a process that still does not end, and I do not quite understand, but I could say that there is a mess with the issue of schedules and food, at this time.
Now I will refer to being a vegetarian. It was about 6 or 7 years ago that we decided; First we leave the chicken, and soon the beef, etc., nothing ... pate, fish, cold cuts, anything like that ... milk and eggs if we continue to consume, with the idea of leaving, more in my case than in the case of she. In our religious line should be left onion, garlic, sugar, black tea, all vices and also milk and eggs when the body can do it.
With the family this position is complicated a bit, some accept it faster than others, some people are bothered ... they react, they want to see you eating meat, they want to see that ... "it happens" that you become ... of the stick and Enjoy a good cut, or achura. And there is always someone who insists and offers you a little meat tip to try ... taking advantage of the tolerance and willingness that we have to "get together" to share a moment. That is, we never fly the banner of vegetarianism, we never sell any speech to anyone about eating meat or not; We understood from the beginning that it is a matter of choice, or evolutionary, and that everyone takes it ... whether it is their moment or not; What discourse could we have if we ate meat just like everyone recently? It is a matter of choice and nothing can precipitate it, or judge it. Everything is fine with people who eat meat, it does not bother us, it was a position that thanks to God we have maintained with coherence ... not to judge. Or understand ... maybe it's the term; judge ... judge.
What we saw was that people were much more intolerant than us. We just said "we don't eat more meat". And they tried us and tried to see ... whose idea it was ... like there was a culprit ... a traitor to the cow ... ha. Like I had convinced her ... of something sinful? Was I a dictator of the vegetable for ever? ¡Pelotudos! It doesn't bother me and I don't judge them!
So, yes, we conclude that meat makes you intolerant. And period
Written by: Roman Hidalgo
