Continuing with the previous entry on the deprogramming of the automaton that we have inside, I have this week done some exercises to enhance the feeling of “separation” that I have when I get my conscience to stay in “control”, or when I "mislead" and then any of these automatic behavioral programs are activated immediately. Basically I have proposed to generate a clearer separation between the different components and note that I perceive when one or the other seems to be predominant as the perceiver of my physical reality.
Who is who in here?
The first thing I had to clearly identify is "who is in control" when I am thinking "who is in control?" I don't know if I explain myself. For me to be able to reason that there must be a part of me reasoning that something handles the controls of this body, I must be able to notice that a component of my being, which is not an automatic program, nor does it appear to be my soul or consciousness, has a perception of both sides. To that, I have named it "thinking mind" or "conscious" mind, and I imagine that I don't discover anything new to anyone using this term.
So right now, who is analyzing if some automatic program manages my life or if my consciousness is what is present or wants to be present, is my conscious mind. Me, talking to myself and addressing the rest of my parts.
Awareness in control
To the next component, the soul or conscience, I have it very identified, since when my conscious mind forces it to take control, the perception of the outside world appears through its lenses. It is just what I explained in the previous article: live in the "now . " When I voluntarily "force" my conscience to surface and take the reins, I flow with the environment (although the one who explains it right now is the conscious or thinking mind). There is a feeling of lightness and curiosity that caught my attention the first few times, something like “go, what is this ?!”, as if I had taken that consciousness out of a basement (normally covered by the thinking mind and automatic programs) and this will rejoice in being in direct contact with the external reality. That feeling is a bit flippant at first, since I am in a timeless “limbo”, I am simply, and then, when my thinking mind returns to take the reins, it hallucinates with the perceptions it has had, as if for the first time a child saw something and be amazed to see it. I think it is a sign that I must get more out of my "conscience / soul" to take a walk in the world taking the reins of the physical experiences in which I am involved. In this regard, I think that precisely the children spend a large part of the time in this state, without having yet generated or implemented programs or patterns of behavior.
I find however a small inconvenience to this state, which is interesting, but which I think is not entirely functional for 3D, physical experiences. And I am pretty sure that someone who was 100% of the time with his soul in control and on the surface of the connection with the outside world would find it difficult to manage what came to him (I am still wrong and it is simply lack of practice), but of course he would be in a state of timeless "fluidity" that would make him see the world differently. No wonder that someone who could achieve something like nirvana or permanent enlightenment would have simply achieved that it was his conscience that faced the physical world, leaving aside the rest of the body's functionalities in which he incarnates.
A small scheme
As always, the way I've been able to schematize it is more or less like this:
Of course, as I was experimenting with the consciousness or the thinking mind that alternated the control of my perception of the outside world, the automatic programs did not come into play, but it was enough that I had a distraction, that the telephone rang, that it arrived an email and I read it, so that one of them (of the programs), will be activated and lose all previous perception, again to start acting and respond automatically to external stimuli. It is clear that they have all the power and control unless you really work to avoid it (speak my thinking mind that realizes when automatic behavioral programs are activated or deactivated).
Asking the subconscious
In order to “discuss” these issues with other parts of myself that are not normally accessible, especially the subconscious, I use automatic writing (which is, for example, the way Neale Donald Walsch wrote his famous trilogy “Conversations with God "). And since I already have experience with it and over the years I have managed to flow my subconscious information naturally, I have asked a series of questions to understand if the scheme, at least in my case, was correct, and what to do with the programs Basically my subconscious responds to me that those programs neither the thinking mind nor the conscience needs them or wants them, but that it is not “easy” to eliminate or deactivate them. In fact, I do not think that they can be eliminated, at the most, I can stop activating them if I empower either the control of the thinking mind or the consciousness 100% of the time, the same thing that I spoke in the previous article and what we Tolle speaks in the "Power of Now", and a little emphasizing that Gurdjieff's teachings to deactivate this automaton (which for me is a great reference on the study of human beings) are a life-long work.
At least what I do notice is that every time I force a program to deactivate, because I realize that I am reacting automatically, it costs me less to keep the thinking mind a little more in control and if I force myself to stay in the "Now, " I manage to stay a little longer before, for whatever reason, I lose that control again. I do not intend to fight with myself constantly, but if I increase that control for the part that interests me most, to see if I stop behaving automatically in those aspects of my life where, without realizing it, I am like everyone else, an automaton More in a world of machines.
a hug!
David
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