SO SOUGHTFUL PEACE
I give up. I no longer know what face to put or what to say when they tell me about the state of war of any place on the planet ... poker face I suppose, and I remain in a silence that bothers me as if the interlocutor waited for the already well-written phrase of a pre-established script for to be able to delight in arguments that will keep us in a spiral towards discomfort and possibly exaltation.
I have learned that the long-awaited inner peace is the basis to begin to live a peaceful reality, although it is true that, in this puzzle piece that I occupy in the game of the vine, the total harmony with the beings who have shared and share my life. But I know what tools to use to appease that memory or that thought that distorts the present moment. It is also true that at some times I resist using them and I get hooked on that movie that, without prior notice, they broadcast on the channel of my mind. Yes, sometimes I feel resentment, anger, discomfort and fear. But every time I get less scared of the aspects that make up human being, rather, on the contrary, I realize that it has no merit to feel spiritual when, in my opinion, this is our true nature. How am I going to feel proud of being what I am?
If any merit must have to live this life on this planet is to be fully human and learn to live with your peers, as well as deal with emotions and thoughts and other surprises that life gives you.
For all this, some moons ago, that I realized that the key to the long-awaited peace lies within me and when the media stamped on my forehead an image of pain and desolation I am aware that life beats an alarm, offering me a new opportunity to focus my gaze on another fold of my soul where another chapter of my life that PEACE calls out will be waiting for.
© Assumpció Fàbregas, Omnia
July 2014
The Long-awaited Peace by Assumpció Fàbregas, Omnia
