It is quite rare for me to let so many weeks go by without writing something. A few months ago, my neurons boiled, expressing in words the knowledge, understanding and experiences that were happening to me, to understand them, structure them and analyze them, while I shared them, since it is the fact of writing, what, to My, particularly, helps me to put my ideas, concepts and revelations in clear. But since I managed to start being much more focused on the consciousness of my being, after having disassembled as far as possible that shadow energy Negative ethics, and having focused my energy inward and towards strengthening that nucleus or essence that we all are, right now the days go by and it doesn't even appear here the need to write down what I feel, learn or understand again.
My companions tell me that I am (we are, because we are all in the same process of change), leaving behind the old-fashioned way of working, much more mental and much more s of wanting to understand things, to move on to the new way of feeling and knowing things simply because yes (because there is the unquestionable certainty inside of you why that). The same schemes, working modes, protocols and methods that we had to explore the rules of the game under which we live, cease to make sense, or have it in another way, because they transform as one It transforms itself. Now I walk between two extremes that have me a little with the feeling of being mounted on a pendulum, because when I move towards a mental state of analysis, and investigation, when I am preparing the conferences, workshops or whatever, I enter the way I have always worked, and I am happy and active and tremendously prolific in the material I produce. When I consciously disconnect and focus on what Barbara Brennan calls the "core" or the core of each one of us, I enter another state of being and I don't need to write anything, publish anything, or give any kind of talk or workshop . And I say I need because really writing and speaking for me has always been a passion, I enjoy doing it, and yet it depends on the mode of operation in which you are, it seems that you are wanting to do something or you are without any need to do it.
The second phase of the change begins
I have understood that I have reached the second phase of what we called "the dark night of the soul", as I explained months ago in this other article when we were just starting to poke our heads through the process of death and personal resurrection:
“The process of working with the shadow can be divided into two halves, or two cycles. The first is the descent into the inner underworld of each one, where the egoic personality in its negative facets is broken into pieces, through tremendous efforts and external shocks that leave shattered a part of the dark and rigid mental structures established along life. I have already received two shocks of this style, and, if you have not lived it, you cannot explain what it feels like. A hammer breaking inside would be a good description, but it does not really come close to the sensation that produces a part of you being dismantled. These parts, then, have to be transmuted, and the broken pieces must be recomposed to keep the whole of your psyche stable and functional, but without the associated negative charge they possessed before. That which has been released and leaves its place, must be filled again, this time with the "positive" parts of oneself.
When one has finished this first part of the cycle, which can last an eternity, they say that then the second one begins, which is to bring it back to the surface, leaving behind the inner underworld already more or less decomposed and partially released, clean and transmuted, the pure essence of each one, awakening the total connection with the being from which we come, and the manifestation of his “conscience” in ours, for one no longer has an artificial and egoic personality that takes command, but then, it is our Higher Self who does it and the ego simply "obeys." The difference is that, now, the vision we had of the world prior to the process is dead, has disappeared, because the seventh veil has been broken, and one begins the new stage with a completely different perspective, obviously, if the whole process that it has been done during the first cycle, it has been successful. ”
Of course, what I didn't have for my hand, when I wrote that, is that the beginning of this new resurrection cycle was anything but simple to transition. You cannot leave the operating modes and the perception of the things that you have always had of reality overnight, but nevertheless, you have to do it, because they no longer serve you to understand what is outside, much less to understand yourself. So you have to redirect everything and let it fall what has to fall, and accept that if for some reason you have to start working and working in another way, this is how it should be. Everything changes in your external reality as you change within yourself, because when the consciousness of being takes over, even if it is a short time every day, and then you return to the artificial and egoic consciousness of always, since energy restructuring is inevitable and periods of confusion and of not understanding what is happening to you, begin to give rise to a new vision of who you are and what you have to do.
The seventh veil breaks very little by little, it goes through with every minute you spend with the awareness of your being in charge of the body you occupy. The connection with the “now” moment is installed in a much more vivid and lasting way, and you begin to anchor to that eternity that is supposed to be every moment in which you are alive and awake. Then you disconnect again, because the mind does not cease to give up control, especially one of its components, which we call the predatory mind, and about which I am learning a lot and dealing with it lately, and when you realize it again, you continue being as we have always been and still working as if nothing had happened, but, nevertheless, a feeling persists that this way of being is not the most appropriate or correct, and then you remember again that you have to reconnect with your essence and give him the command again. Of total pendulum. Now let's see if I can stop it at the right end :–).
David Topí
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Life is transformed, when one is transformed inside
